hence the pillows

Lets get back to business.
Down and dirty.
Up and adam.

So i was like...at this party last night...and like...it was sooo crazy. Hahahaha. Fuck my life. Anyway. This boy in a typical 'this is my room and im going to put pillows on the floor and have random people sit on them while smoking hooka' atmosphere told me this idea of two types of happiness. Happiness in the moment, present, enjoying yourself as you are right now. And happiness in memory. I think that is a very simple concept. This is a situation in which someone has said something so simple that you feel like it was unnecessary to even say. But you look at him and hear "wow that is such a cool thing to think about" come out of your lying mouth. You bastard. Tell the truth. Look at him and say -Loser. Get up off your pillow. Dance mother fucker! Dance!

I met him and he had facial hair and drank coffee and lemon liqueur and talked the talk so i thought hell, might as well walk the walk. He was the guy that said "I might touch you as I lean over quickly but try not to think im coming on to you". And I like when people say things like that. Because honestly, If he hadn't warned me. I would have thought he was coming on to me. And to tell the whole truth, I still thought that. And it's not like I think to myself 'goddamnit. If i werent me. I would come on to me. I love me.' I just moreso think that some people want a little boom chicka wa wa. And some people want a little conversation. Im a conversationalist. So dont lean over in to me. I'll fucking freak out and become super uncomfortable. Which makes things hard because Im normally slightly uncomfortable in most situations. Until im drunk or high or just over it. I can get over it. But initial feelings of love and warmth in a room are important. Hence the pillows. Nice call, lean over and not come on to me boy. Clever trick.