keep in soft touch (uh huh like that)

I promise this will be the most boring post ever. So proceed if you dare.

Go to youtube and listen to i got you by train. (this is me setting the mood) Okay. Now take off your shirt. Uh huh. Just like that.

My advisor asked me what one thing I would do to change the world if I could. (pause. awkward silence. why do all these cliche answers keep coming to me? fuck peace. fuck killing war. I want to be original. those things can wait. and then my lame answer came to me...) My answer bores even me, so i'll just tell you what I wish I would have said. And since ive thought about this answer more than my real answer, sooner or later I'll most likely THINK this is what i actually said. If I could do one thing it would be to make people happy. I know thats stupid, but its truly what I love to do. I guess everyone loves doing that, but it can consume me. I just wanna make your day. If im close to actually doing homework, i'll write someone a letter instead. If im about to go to the library, i'll stop and call a friend. I cant say no. I want to be there for you, i want to make you laugh, make you feel good, make you think youre beautiful, smart, creative, unique. And you are. Happy people spread it, they make other people happy, and it just keeps going and going.

Giggity giggity.

Im probably already in love with you if youre reading this. Its so easy. Aaron always tells me I get too attached to people. Certain people. And thats probably the case. I read this little quote that goes - 'i miss the strangers i was too afraid to talk to' I think everyone feels that way. And I try to not let that happen, try not to be afraid. What does it matter? What do you have to lose? Some people probably think im the most awkward person in the world because I talk to them. But why not? hahahahaaa.

Im sorry I just have to say one thing about Kinzee that always makes my day. We will both be COMPLETELY distracted when having a conversation. Our conversation isnt making any sense at all. So i'll say something like - 'okay...love you...cant wait to see you.' and she'll just laugh and be like - 'um nope not yet.' so we'll talk more. (about nothing) and then i'll try again - 'omg sis ...love you. CANT wait to see you.' (attempting to get off the line) and then she'll say--'haha nope im not ready yet. stop trying.' and then in two minutes she'll say - 'okay talk to you later. love you. night.' and just hang up. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. it fucking KILLS me.

and thats how you wrap people around your finger.

i told you to proceed if you dared. god love ya.