la la la la

Darkness. Pounding head. (bam. bam. bam.) I can hear an ANNOYING fucker yelling at his tv from a different floor. (goddamn march madness) I havent taken my socks off from last night. i havent given anything too much thought today. but one string of realizations was this:::::

after last night, my life will never be the same.
which reminded me that...........
-after my mom forbid me from eating cinnamon toast (butter on white bread w/ sugar---yum) my life was never the same. (okay. yeah i was getting a little chunky)
-after I read the bible my life was never the same (HAHAHAHA. yeah.............no that never happened)
-after I quit volleyball and went out for cross country. then quit softball and went out for track. my life was never the same. (i can just PICTURE when I told breanna fuckin gossman that I was quitting volleyball. we are at the preston pool. and we literally WENT there together. nope...didnt leave together)
-after I told BREANNA that i liked josh. she told him. and then he said 'ummm so yeahhh. breanna said you like me. so i was thinking we should go out' hahahahaha. (or something like that) i ran to my little PE class and could NOT calm down. i was so happy. :) it was our wrestling unit.
-after i listened to jack johnson for the first time (i will never ever ever ever admit to how i heard/discovered him for the first time......that would KILL me. literally.)
-after kinz & i invented the word 'scramble'. my life was never the same.
-after situations on the low maintenance road near my house. (life was Never the same)
-after I read the Fountainhead. life just wasnt the same.
-after I realized coffee, alcohol, tea, huffing Pam (ha.), and other things that go in through your mouth and out through your brain, make me feel silly, my life was never the same.
-After I went out for track and met SAYLRE. my life is just not the same. bringing up saylre made me think of something else too. some things stick. and some dont. ive met So many little hearts and brains but some are gone forever and saylre is not. weird. and pleasant.
-after my 10th grade year in bball. life was never similar.
-senior year? going to madison? meeting laura, rachel, leah, aaron, sarah, evan, andy, joe, vic, ves, aimee, mike (i swear to GOD we'll meet)............all good luck. my life just hasnt been the same.
-how could i not bring up kinz jon morg jord joshua (its so funny--if you Actually just let your brain flow.....its funny who will come to your mind and who wont.) life has never been the same.
-----------> last night :) :) :) my life will never be the same. i can feel it. i can feel it everywhere. except the little spot on my back i can never reach/itch.