I cant stop being tired today. I took a 'half' hour nap after class. I literally felt like i had taken two doses of LSD and rubbed them on my eyeballs. I would fall asleep and KNOW that I was dreaming. But my dreams were SO realistic, in my dreams I was right their on my futon, but there was always someone yelling at me. I would know it was a dream and say to myself, just sleep through it, sleep is more important than your fear. I would always wake myself up when it got too weird though. I felt like I was falling and couldnt stop spinning on my futon.
Crazy.
Its never felt like that before. Thats what I said.
God. I cant stop listening to A case of you by joni mitchell.
I think that tonight will be the night that I resist peer pressure for the first time since I was 14 and work on my english paper. But i cant make any promises. hahahahaha. i just refuse to promise such silly things. Never make promises, especially when you already know there is a chance you wont. I always give myself to like five people on saturdays and forget about all of them. Its so scary waking up saturday morning. I just stay in bed and then do my laundry. That way I dont disappoint anyone. I love doing homework in the laundry room. its the perfect amount of commotion, warmth, scent, atmosphere.
I think the reason I am so A.D.D. is because everyone is all crazed due to spring break. and when someone else is restless, that makes me ten times as restless.
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