they'll have you suicidal. suicidal. when they say its over.

Lets keep in soft touch.
I love that expression.
Im having a great morning. My words are getting 'confused'. I was about to say - "Im having a great question." ??? Thats kinky. Um so heres whats on the dashboard--- 1) sorority row. (literally. I loved it. Im not even being sarcastic when I say that. But I loved it because it allowed me to be sarcastic.) 2) How happy we all are 3) college = 1/4 over 4) how great the song 'sunday morning' by maroon 5 is. 5) what ever happened to Maroon 5?

Things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do. And i would gladly hit the road, get up if I knew. That someday it would lead me back to you :) Great lyrics.

The thing is...Time. Everything is time. But if time isnt real? What is real? We are nothing. In the end, its nothing. Its so great to know that you will die soon. It frees you to live TODAY. I love it. Because I can remember yesterday, but yesterday is no longer real. Its just so nice to realize you can be selfish sometimes. Maybe thats all I am. Selfish. I love my life. I'll have those nights where I hate it, but in the end, Im not too proud to admit that I love it here. I think that sometimes people are too proud to be happy. They just cant allow themselves to be. Those people literally need therapists. I dont need a therapist. And some may think Im crazy. But I think they're CRAZY. Tarzan and Jane made it. Why cant we?

I really am inspired by weird things. John Lennon. I mean, its not weird, but I suppose its 'random'. Andy Warhol. So innovative. (bam. hit you with that word.) Lady Gaga. Glee. Kid Cudi. Jason Mraz. They are all extremely original. And I hate that I cant BE that way. I watch the pursuit of happiness music video and am filled with extreme jealousy and admiration that my fists clench. Its ridiculous. I need to do that. Be that.

Last night while extremely drunk I jumped (sprung) off the futon and claimed "I JUST REALIZED HOW HAPPY I AM" Isnt that beautiful? Just admit it, for a second I did something beautiful. I love that I said that. I love it even more that I cant remember it. I just have to trust that Rachel isnt lying. She wouldnt lie? Would she? Who would make that up?

People make up weird stuff.
People steal weird stuff.
People are weird stuff? hehe (kinzee johnson type hee hee.)